Well. Last night while I was drawing this, I saw out of the corner of my eye something big run across my floor to the wall that my desk is against, and it kinda freaked me out. I thought, "oh no, was it a cockroach or something?!". So I called my dad all freaked out-like, and he assured me that cockroaches don't do that, and that they generally stick around under the sink or something because there's water there... and that it was probably just a big beetle because we get those a lot in the summer. He jokingly said at the end that there was no way those spiders' relatives from the basement (refering to my old room in the house I used to stay in) would know that it was me who killed their family and track me down. XD My dad's funny...

So I went along on my merry way and then as I was getting ready to turn off the comp and get to bed I look over and there it was only this time out in the middle of the floor. Got a good look at him that time. HUGE spider! I was paranoid all last night. I didn't sleep well because of the stupid spider in my living room. I was gonna squish him but every small step I made he ran for the hills somewhere. He's probably more scared of me than I am of him but... God he was huge! Looked like he could be about the size of a quarter including his legs (maybe a bit bigger, I only saw him with his legs bent in like they are on spiders). I wanted to call my dad and tell him to kill it. XD I'm usually good at killing spiders but man... that one just freaked me out. He looked like he might have been a wolf spider or something but I'm not sure. :/

So.. I dunno. My crazy story for the day.

I gotta get to work now. X3 And then freak out about it with my coworkers lol!

~ Horus

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So. I'm up late again. No work tomorrow.

I'm tired but don't feel like sleeping...

So when I get tired I start thinking too much or I just get silly or hyper. One of those. xD Maybe all at once hahah!

Anyhow. I was going to spend this journal rambling about how much I wish I could be with someone but I wont because it's futile. x3 I'm on a dating site and well... I am on there to try and meet some girls but most contact I ever get is from desperate men. Or horny assholes who don't know how to take a hint that I don't want to fly to California just to fuck them. >_>;; I have had maybe... four girls total ever contact me and I've been on there since last year?! I have a hard time finding a girl who lives close (not in Boulder... a lot of them are in BOULDER. nuuuu!)...

I did have dinner with a nice girl today (or I guess Sunday, yesterday since it's now 3AM for me lol). She was pretty nice. It's almost like talking to myself only she is a lot more talkative than I am hahah. xD Anyway... She was cool.

I dunno. I've tried finding good dating sites for girls but, the ones I've found so far are pay sites.

I don't really want to block off the possibility of being with guys entirely it's just... when they see the "bisexual" label they must jump out of their seats while thinking of kinky threesomes in their heads or something. I have met some down to earth guys on there but... I dunno. I don't like too-clingy or too-horny types. I'm a horny person I am, but God I don't say things like "you're hot we would be good in bed" in a first conversation (or any conversation unless things were serious).

So I dunno. I almost want to give up sometimes. I know a guy I like being around, probably the only guy I really enjoy being around... but aside from him I dunno. The guys I meet on the street usually just see me and don't think about just being friends they always want something from me. I talk to guys when I'm out sometimes because I find it easier to talk to guys (no idea why though). But problem is they always think I'm interested in something more from them because of that... and I'm like... No... I just enjoyed our conversation. >_>;;;

Maybe I just have bad luck with men on a whole. Women I am not sure. The women I know are at work mostly, and well, that's work. I wouldn't date someone from work. X3

Anyway I dunno where I'm going with this I'm just feeling like complaining I guess. X'D I really don't hate guys at all. I have known some who have been completely awesome, sweet, genuine people, but... God I have bad luck with them lately at least. 'Cept for my one guy friend lol.

So anyhow. That's all I guess. I need to go to bed. >_>;;


Well a few more things to add I guess. In all honesty, I'm not desperate for a relationship. In fact I don't check the dating site I'm on all that much. When I do, I sometimes spend an hour or more on it. I'm not one of those people who would kiss someone on a first date much less have sex with them... I would rather make friends first and see where things go. I guess it just feels like I meet the wrong people there. And not just online on dating sites, even in person. I don't go to clubs or bars much at all. I don't like doing that sort of thing alone lol. For good reason. >_>; I generally would like to let things happen as they happen but sometimes things just irritate me, that's all. And the one person I really do like whom I thought I wouldn't isn't an option right now... so... that sort of bothers me but I'm a patient person. I don't plan on repeating my last relationship again so the last thing I'm going to do is pursue someone who isn't ready or in the case of my ex, wasn't interested until all other options were exhausted. >_<;;;

So don't worry about me. Sometimes I just feel like bitching about it even though the next day I'll be happy about being single. I'm weird like that I guess. xD Anyway though, thanks for the advice guys.

~ Horus

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I feel like such an adult. Doing my budget. Figuring out bills. Yeah. Soooooo not fun. But it must be done!

In the process I realized that I will need extra money at the end of the month, not so much because I wont have enough to cover everything but just because I'd like to have more than oh.. say, $300 in the bank at the end of the month when all is said and done... X'D

So keeping that in mind I probably will be working on those commissions I owe you guys (you know who you are) more diligently. Of course I wont charge anyone over what's fair, I do go hourly so I can't say that one payment will cover everything (even though usually it has). I do have commissions that have no payments yet (and haven't been started yet either) so I'm hoping you guys would be cool with me starting them soon and the first payment being made.

Things'll be pretty much the same I just will hopefully be working and getting these commissions done quickly and before the end of the month or shortly after.

Then depending on how I am doing money-wise I MIGHT start taking new commissions after that. If I do it'll only be like... two at a time, and limited to only ONE commission per individual. Also just to make it easier on my brain I may change up the commission types/rates again. I would rather do simple commissions after I'm done with what I have now. Maybe sketch/simple lineart + simple colour would work better on me. Something like Open Canvas drawings again. I dunno.

Anyway I'm rambly because I'm super tired right now.

I just got to thinking about this stuff and thought I'd give a heads up I suppose. I'm still not guaranteeing I'll be doing more commissions after this so please PLEASE don't send me commission inquiries. I'm not saving slots for anyone. And I'm not going to send out a notice to everyone who asks to have one sent to them about when I'd be taking them again. I'm not an automated mailing system, ne?

Any future updates to my commission status will be announced on my main entries and also the commission status journal (also linked above below the header image of my journals)

~ Horus

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I found some super cute Japanese clothing (casual/dressy) on eBay after searching "Japan" in the clothing section out of curiosity/boredom.

I thank who ever is up in the clouds that I was blessed to be short (5'1" (154.9cm) and small lol), because I can actually shop Japanese clothing and fit into their sizes without having to get XL or something equivalent lol!

Aaanyway... I searched high and low to find these clothes for less (because I'm cheap lol) and found the wholesaler (CleoCat Fashion) of these items- catch is you have to buy 15 or more (duh, "wholesale"!). I think instead of spending way too much on these over time I'm just going to save up money and buy a lot of them at once. Just gotta find somewhere for it to be delivered since an apartment wouldn't be the best place lol. x3

I dunno. I'm torn between super cute girly clothes and the more gothy punkish looks. I'm starting to lean more towards the simple pretty stuff. I've even retired my old pleather coat for good. I'm taking a lot of my old gothy stuff to Savers tomorrow x3. I guess I feel like I'm outgrowing it.. or maybe I just need to update it. I wear more casual "normal" clothes these days anyhow...

Well anyway... aside from that, just been working a lot. I'll get to notes soon I promise. :S I've been working little by little on commissions too, no worries.

~ Horus

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Yes another journal since... I most likely wont be updating again for the next week since I tend to withdraw from posting during my work week lol.

Anyway, thing with that copying incident was solved. Turns out the girl's deciding to go back and give credit on her work where it's due.

Other than that I spent quite a few hours sorting through my notes and PayPal making sure I knew who has done what and what I owe to who. I updated the Commission Status list. A lot of people were removed either because they didn't get back to me soon enough back in March, or they said they didn't want a commission after all... so that will honestly, help take a big load off my shoulders.

I also did a lot of hacking about at my Art for Sale making sure I knew who's payed and what piece goes to who.

So, things are slowly coming together. I'm sorry it's taken so long.

From now on I will be working occasionally on commissions. Maybe an hour everyday. So you should be expecting the occasional update with new commissions from time to time in the future.


On an entirely different note, my friend =temporary-glitch posted a journal about that Anime contest deviantART held a while ago, and I must say that even though I didn't enter it really pisses me off that they would choose such a cliche piece... it's like the dA staff pride themselves on what they're constantly scrutinized for. No creativity, cliche anime crap. I shouldn't insult the artist who won but geez... there are a heck of a lot better artists on this site who entered, my friend included. I'm glad I didn't enter. This would have pissed me off even more lol. Because when you put a lot of effort into something that actually looks good and see something like that win, it makes you feel shitty lol.

~ Horus