Have a lot I could talk about but I guess I wont be saying much.

And I'm too tired to think at the moment... I really should have slept more but, I have to be sure I can sleep tonight so I can get up for work tomorrow. Ugh.

Been stressed out over stupid crap that I put myself into. I don't know why I subjected myself to it. Thought it would help me move on but in the end it just tore open an old scar. I also did a fine job pushing a friend away because I didn't want anyone that close to me again... And now I guess all I can say is you never really know what you had til it's gone. Yes, like the song. Pff lol. But really it's true... I thought that if I pushed him off me it would keep me safer and keep me from lashing out like I do at him when I get stressed out or upset. I might seem nice most of the time, and I genuinely am, but sometimes I can be downright mean... and that's a side I don't like to show many people especially friends. But in the end I did that anyway I guess. Telling him to give up was possibly the worst thing I could have done, and now I realize that it was wrong of me to do. And now he's pissed at me. He has every right to be but... I don't know how else to say "sorry I want to fix things" to where he'll feel like I'm actually TRYING to fix things. I can't fix anything if he wont first believe that I want to. The only way that I can do that is through talking. But... sigh. I dunno.

I'll stop rambling. I just don't know how to fix what I've done if he doesn't give me a chance to. Should I step back and leave him alone, or bug the shit out of him til he believes me? I don't know... :/

Well anyway...

I hate drama. Seems to follow me where I go though... for some reason... >_>; Oh yeah, probably cuz I'm female. LOL. -.-;;

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• ~Grim-Reaper-Kumquat - being discussed.
• ~Sol-Sanctum - full body illustration sketch with no BG
• ~Kchi - 3 character full body illustration, full color with BG
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